Here's my problem.

I am so GOD DAMNED protective of my family/friends, and it gets me into trouble. I mostly try to stay out of the way and let them fight their own battles, but sometimes people cross a line, and I can't just sit there without saying anything. I wasn't raised that way. And yes, that usually gets me kicked in the teeth. Does that learn me my lesson and keep me from doing it the next time? No. And it never will. I will continually run blindly into the fray to protect someone who means something to me, whether they want me to or not, and yes, I will most likely always metaphorically die. Maybe one day I'll actually die. Will it stop me? Again, no. Broken record, this one. More than likely, I'll stay on this self-sacrificing path and lose friends over and over b/c they think they don't need a hero. So I'll continue to stand on the sidelines watching them self-sabotage until I can't just watch anymore, and then they'll completely go away. Or I'll finally stand up to some bitch that my friends have needed to stand up to forever and my friends will leave b/c "they could have done that." Whatever... Can't change the spots on a giraffe, can't change my sense of protectiveness over my friends and family.

24. schizo

So I was stalking my old photos I retrieved from my old laptop, and I realized something: I'm horribly schizo with my hair. I've had short, long, curly, straight, different colors, etc. I think it's because most of the time I feel out of control of my life, so I control my hair. Idk. I'm strange. I'm feeling hair style nostalgic a lot lately though. Here's a line of photos to demonstrate my point.

22. me duele la cabeza

My head has been hurting for a week now. Sinuses and shit. Hopefully now that I've dealt with a bunch of financial aid fuckery, it'll get better. Fingers crossed people.

22. saggy

Nothing makes me happier than seeing a pic on facebook of a typically attractive girl in her pajamas, messy hair, and sagging bra-less boobs. It makes them seem more human.

21. title here

I'm kind of excited about putting stuff in my blog again. Less people read it than if I posted on tumblr/facebook, and I'm kind of okay with that. There's too much bullshit there these days anyway. I'm about to start burning bridges with a lot of people, and it feels really good, I must say.

20. ahhhhh.

Nothing like a good oil change to get the mind moving.

I'm not talking about cars either.

Sorry I've been neglecting my blarg lately. I'm thinking I'm about to start blowing it up big time.

19. How to confuse the pizza delivery guy

Okay, loyal readers... all one of you. I have to share this with you. I ordered a pizza tonight from Papa John's (PJ's for short) and on the special instructions area, since I was ordering online, I put avoid the Velociraptors, b/c I knew my friend Omar was working, and he'd laugh at it. So when the delivery boy gets to my door, it's not Omar. Omar just informed me that the poor guy was extremely confused about the velociraptors. That's what he gets for not being an avid Jurrasic Park fan. I'm beginning to regret tipping him so much.