8. Now, let's talk about my ass.

I know... you've been dying to hear about it ever since you noticed it in my title. Well here we go. Hitch up your belt loops, and away we go.

I went shopping today. Now, I will admit here, I'm one of those fat kids that goes shopping in fairly high spirits, damn me. As I dig through all the size zeros and ones and twos, I start to dip into my usual fat girl depression, and by the time I get to the dressing room with my meager choices, I'm near a meltdown of epic proportions. Then I get in there and find that yet another pair of pants, yet another adorable top, does not freakin' fit. Well, that's what happened today. And the more clothing I tried on, the more I wanted to seriously punch the mirror so I didn't have to look at myself anymore. I refrained, as if I happen to lose weight, I want to be allowed back into the store. So anywho.... after much glaring, pulling, tugging, huffing, and puffing, I came home totally deflated and drowned my sorrows in a Beef and Cheddar. It's a vicious cycle really, one that I've been stuck in since I was 14. Puberty hit me hard...with a shovel...and now I'm using that shovel to stuff as many bad food choices into my mouth as possible.

So here's my solution. I'm going to start limiting my calories majorly. I'm going to plan out my meals a week in advance and eat only that. No allowances for other stuff. If I want to change, I'm going to have to make a drastic change in my lifestyle. I've already written out one day, and it's looking good. six days to go, but I'm not worried about it. I'm going to start getting up earlier, as I've been sleeping until about ten thirty or eleven everyday, and I'm going to make myself go walking or jogging before class and work. I have to change or I'm going to end up with all the health problems that my family suffers from, on top of all the ones I have already....not to mention I won't be welcome back to Old Navy for punching their mirrors out.

So here's to not being fat anymore! Well, working towards not being fat anymore anyway.

<3 AJ